As 2020 is approaching, I’m coming back alive. December began amazing with that short spontaneous trip to Paris. I couldn’t imagine better start to this magical month! After, everything went slightly downhill as illness caught me and wouldn’t go away for ages. I didn’t even feel the willingness to do things I love doing. The perfect phrase to describe myself in those weeks would be a “walking dead”. Not kidding!… I’m still not properly well and trying to be careful and look after myself more, but today was the first day in 2 weeks that I finally felt like myself again. I had this strike of energy I didn’t feel in past weeks. I was simply positive and cheerful self I love to be so much. Happy and creative part of me was screaming inside: “I’m back!”.
I have a busy week ahead so I believe this is the last time I’m writing here in 2019. And I want to take a few minutes to reflect on it.
It’s been overwhelming year full of changes. I ended up moving to London as I promised myself in 2018. Learning to embrace single life in the right way for myself. Letting go of things not meant for me as gracefully as possible. Getting a job in one of the big international companies with hopes for it to help me achieve my goals and make my dreams come true – hard and exhausting at times but it started paying off. Meeting new amazing people. Clarifying what I do and do not believe in. Also what I do and do not want in my life.
This year was about finding myself and staying true. It was about being brutally honest with myself and finally accepting my flaws and the fact that I can never be perfect.
There’s still a lot to let go of and still so much to learn, but if I’ve learned everything until now, there would be nothing left for another year that’s coming.
Never in my life have I been more at peace and happy with myself. I’m excited to see what 2020 will bring to my life. Roll on New Year! I’m ready ❤️
I hope you all have amazing last few days of 2019 and I wish you all the best for the new one!
With love, Weronika xxx
Phot. Francesco Borneo